You can participate in an on line Al Anon meeting, and reading and posting here has been a lifesaver for me. I also see a great therapist.
I know it's hard to get out when you have little ones, but you know what they say about putting your own oxygen mask on first.
One day at a time, that is how all of this is done. The past may be tough to let go of, don't expect so much of yourself so soon, just take care of you, and don't worry about him...
Wishing you the best, you are worth it, we all are worth it
