RAH is at AA meeting right now and I know I should be thrilled that he is embracing the program because he has been against it for years swearing he could do it on his own, etc...I just feel so bitter still! He is doing all he humanly can to recover completely but I still feel resentment. Getting to Alanon meetings are hard for me because I have 2 little ones and I've been going as I can find sitters here and there but I don't have much support around me. Is there ever a point like maybe too much has happened for me to recover? I feel so guilty because he is doing everything he can but maybe its too late? I don't know how to let go of all the hell he has put me through. I try so hard and try to focus on today and not the past, but it still somehow rears its ugly head. Will I ever be able to trust him again? I want to, I just don't.