Yeah...
So.. I have a need and I have an expectation that I need it met.
I've felt like I've being playing this stupid game for the last 16 years. Be good... don't use... take care of your issues... and life will be good.
So.. here I sit like a little kid... needing attention... and I feel like an idiot.
I have this black ache in me...
I keep telling myself to look to myself... but I feel nothing from that. No relief.. no solace.
I suspect it stems back from the mommy and daddy thing... but I have no hope in hell of getting it met by them.
I have needs... but I should have no expectations.
So.. what's the f'n point then in being in any kind of a relationship???
EH????