Originally Posted by
Eddiebuckle 
I don't know that it would have been possible to overcome the years of neglect that I inflicted on the earlier relationship. I was never abusive, but alcohol was my first love/priority and though we still stay in touch and did separate very amicably, I suspect that I had poisoned the well of our relationship beyond repair.
You know Eddie... I think that's just about where I am with my marriage right now. After 10 years of consistent neglect and verbal abuse, and now recently physical abuse... the relationship is beyond repair. I see it, my AH does not. In his mind it still boils down to - I need to just deal with his drinking and everything would be fine. Too much hurt and pain on my side though to ever go back to denial-land though.
It's so sad... so unbelievably freakin' sad.
Time to move on to the life I want for me.