I spent Mother's day being tired. AH slept until 1:30, woke up and played video games. Didn't lift a finger, barely acknowledged my presence. I had planned on leaving for awhile on Sunday, but changed my mind due to how tired I was, and I took a nap instead. I woke up 2 hours later, he was still sitting in front of his Xbox, middle son still on the computer, youngest had napped with me. Not even a basket of clothes folded for me.
Not a single word about mother's day, but in the past he has told me I don't deserve anything for it since I'm a crappy mom anyway. I AM a crappy mom for having subjected the kids to his drunken rants, for me engaging when he's like that and coming off as crazy, for believing all these years that it was my fault that he drank, yelled at me, kept money from me and the kids, etc. But I will NO LONGER be a crappy mom.
I know, not any opinions, but a very much BTDT.