Ew, yeah, the past couple days as I've done normal things like put gas in the car, opening the console to get a pen to sign the receipt - - and going into my AH's clothes hamper to get his laundry - -
I wasn't looking for those mini wine bottles either time - but there they were -
and I did relapse into some self-righteous thinking, backsliding into seeing him not as one with a disease, but as a lesser being - -
And I did stop myself from those formerly blind actions that had created wrong pathways. I'd traveled those wrong pathways so often in the past that they were well-worn, and therefore, habits...
Al-Anon is teaching me to travel better pathways, to take out those pathways of habit that lead to places I don't need to be. My Higher Power lifted me out of the mire, and I am grateful.