Illusions That Have My Mind Twisted & My Body Numb
Most of you know my story. If not you can read my previous post.
This weekend, my body went numb along with my feelings & emotions.
My mind got twisted and I sit here today in a fog. Wondering
how to handle the illusion's that were put on my plate.
My daughter tells me:
My RAH, for years had been going in her room
crying to her in the middle of the night, of how much him & I loved her.
My RAH, didnt just buy her one drink at the bar, it was 4. He also patted
her rump, kissed her on the cheek, that is why he got beat up. (Her
story matches the guys at the bar, AH has a story of his own)
My RAH, had been meeting some lady out of town at a bar, of course just
to talk too.
She also filed a police report on him, and the police did call him, to tell
him that all of his mean texts to her, was considered herassment. And
charges would go forward if he did not stop.
He had been calling me a "F" bitch to my daughter
My mother & brother tells me:
My RAH & mom & her husband went to a bar about 75 miles from home.
The bartender knew his name & normal drink. (When I thought we had
only been there once together)
My friend tells me:
She was wondering what was going, because she would see him
over in another town at a bar, all summer long.
I have never heard these things until this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My God, I sit here, wondering...after 13 years of marriage. I thought I
knew this person. This reminds me of something you see on Tv.
I dont know what happen, but I feel like my head snapped.
Illusions....
Divorce papers will served to him on Saturday.
Our 13th wedding anniversary day...
Thank God, he doesnt live here...But I do fear the day he comes back.
Im taking every precaution, just in case.
The lawyer did write it up, that he cant live in the house, while it
is being sold, only I can live there. Locks are changed.
Im trying & learning to understand the alcoholic behaviors.
But is this part of them?
I feel like Im dealing with 3 different people.
The husband, The alcoholic husband, The physco
How am I ever suppose to trust another human being...
I am just completely numb...This is like a really bad dream