Thank you
I appreciate your thoughts and support. I am so fed up with being tired, feeling like a bad person, and feeling like I have nothing to look forward to. I am sure I am depressed but when I took meds before I was a jittery mess and hated it. I just want to feel better and get happier. I wish like heck I could do that with AH . No one wants to believe a person they spent 14 years with is not good for them. I still struggle with an old habit when I am around him, of living in AH's reality. If he thinks it, I try to make it make sense to me!
Thanks for welcoming me- I feel like a newbie after being gone for a year. I know I have to get better for my kids and for me.