I'm so scared and I feel so alone. I feel like an idiot for believing in him. And even with all this crap he's laid at my feet, I still love him. I feel so stupid.
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Aw, Florence, I understand your ambivalence towards him.
I had the same feelings with my ex.
I felt stupid for being used and cheated, because I was the one working>
He played at being a residential carpenter, but did nearly nothing when we were stationed in Germany.
There are people who can help you.
Please try to get some distance from him. He has shown what he will do when cornered.
The most difficult part of my recovery was asking for help, but when I did, it was a miracle chain of events that changed my life and my childrens for the better.
It hurts now, but it lessen a little everyday.
Beth