Hello and welcome to SR.
It's hard to be in a strange state
with no real life support.
have you sought support in real life?
I know there's meetings there.
The miraculous thing about AA and Alanon
no matter where in the world you are -
you have someplace where people understand.
I hope you'll find support here
and make some new friends.
Again - welcome!
(ps - I've posted this three times and my computer keeps timing out)
kinda like recovery -
we have to decide that it's going to happen
and then keep doing it LOL