Anvil - good one!
Thanks again all...I have successfully returned to the place of happy not-caring. I think I just went shopping at the hardware store for bread and got frustrated and instead of taking a walk or doing something else, I picked up the phone and tried to reason with an alcoholic. So technically...momentarily fell off the codie wagon. I need to leave him alone - those conversations are pointless and I do know better.
He did apologize - via text message - about losing his temper and cussing at me.
Ya know what is funny at this point? I don't want amends. I don't need to be acknowledged for how hard it was for me...I just want to feel some sort of connection with this man who is my husband. Something I have not had for a long time and yet I still seek it. I know it will take a long time for him to really "recover" and learn some new ways of doing things. I just miss him - the guy I used to know - before alcohol snuck in and kicked him in the ass. I miss that guy.