Getting those mixed messages- I love you, I hate you, etc is hard to take isn't it...
Good for you for putting you and your daughter first! Like you my AH was #1 King Baby for waaaay too long and our D's 5 and 3 paid the price for that. Never again.
I laughed at your remark that he thinks "I moved away so now I'm not an alcoholic"... because it's like my AH's remarks over the years that he just happened to decide he wanted to sleep in his classroom on any given night, but it wasn't bc he was drinking bc he was sober... SURE!
One foot in front of the other- you're doing great!