Originally Posted by
nodaybut2day 
Wow WTBH...you handled that so well! I can only imagine how heart-breaking it must haven been to witness his reaction, but even so, you didn't buckle. Congrats.
Thanks... I feel down still about it... In fact today I feel worse. I guess I was hoping to avoid the conversation for a while but avoidance isn't anything healthy as I've learned over the years...
EVERYTHING in me today wants to reach out to him and say I'm sorry I told him he can't come and to say that maybe I misinterpreted my brother and that it's okay for him to come... I want to do something to make it better (for me-- I don't like how I feel-- whether he's an A or not and whether I "should" care or not I DO care that he is hurting-- I am thinking about how I'd feel in that situation and it would be awful).
Despite having the above feelings I KNOW it's co-dependency rearing its head that makes me feel this, I KNOW it's unhealthy and more importantly I WON'T act on how I feel... But it hurts to feel it.