Hey there....
Well, that was a whole lot about him... But what about you? How are you doing and feeling? What are you doing to take care of precious and special YOU?
It does take time to heal and recover... Both sides of the street. You have lots of feelings... And hurts and resentments... That are going to take time for YOU to process. Make no mistake... They are YOURS to process, not his to fix.
And that sucks, I know. I'm right there with you. Trying my best to deal with my anger, hurts and frustration ... I don't have any great answer on how to make those things heal quickly. I know that working my program is certainly helping settle me down and clear my mind to process my thoughts more rationally.
And FWIW... Checking his phone and keeping tabs on him... Takes away from focusing on you, and isn't going to help you one bit.
Take what you like and leave the rest!
Shannon