Originally Posted by
BobbyJ 
I read other stories on here and hear them in my Alanon class .. and I think "Oh, Why cant I think that way or how come I cant be happy like everyone else in a recovery/recovering marriage?" Understanding myself, and understanding reality. Reality that Im not a clone. God is my creator. He loves all of my quirks and understands me and loves me for who I am today. Learning to understand myself and letting go, that its okay, if Im not like the others here on this forum or in life. I am me... 
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Aww.. you are YOU, wonderful you BobbyJ!!!! I had those SAME thoughts for years and years. I thought if I worked the program right that I COULD live with an active alcoholic and all would be fine! I saw all those other people that could do it, well so could I, right?!?! Well, I did for a while, but the reality set it that it just wasn't the life I wanted. And that's okay!
What others are willing to accept is THEIR business, not mine. My AH is mad that I won't settle for the behaviors that his friends' wives settle for... too bad. Should have married their wife, not me.
I want what I want, and THAT IS OKAY.
I love that you posted this today. I'm right there with you!
