Oh I'm sorry. I've been in that spot.
When deciding what is best for you don't worry about what you said before, what her perception is, what she thinks you might or might not do. Try to banish that stuff from your thoughts and just concentrate on the next right thing.
The time is never right. That doesn't mean you have to do anything tomorrow morning by 10am, it just means that you move forward with the next right thing - for you and your son. You can take the time you need to make those decisions and take any actions you wish, just don't get stuck in waiting for the right time.