Well I was feeling really crappy Saturday night, both physicaly and mentally and on the way home from work I just said f*** it and went back into town and bought some spice. I was tired of feeling crappy and thought it would make me feel better, and it did.
I think I'd been leading up to this with all the binge eating, just another addictive behavior. I am dissipointed in myself, though not completely shocked, I've done it many times before. I did kinda feel like I had it "licked" this time though, I guess not.
Anyway, back up on the horse today, nothing I can do about yesterday, except hopefully learn from it. I'd like to learn how not to get to that place where I feel so lousy that I feel like using is a good option. I have been excersing, medatating, eating better, talking to my theripist and family, but still I ended up where I always do. Suggestions?? Thanks.