Hi Rose,
I'm in the same boat. I ask myself those same questions. My husband wants to get back together with me. I do sometimes but then other times I don't.
It sounds like your husband is trying to do the right thing. Do you guys ever do anything together? Instead of him going to the bar would he go to the gym with you.
I know it's hard trusting again. I don't have any advise for you. I'm having the same problem. So much so that I think that's the wedge between me and my husband. (Well one of them anyway).
Just take things one day at a time or one hour at a time if need be. My thoughts are with you today!! I've missed you.
Love,
Galnva