Originally Posted by
anvilhead 
oh Freedom! *****! imagine if you had just accepted defeat......no don't, EMBRACE that your persistence and stick to it tiveness persevered! actually what i WANT to say is "about F'ing TIME!"
You know, there's a big part of me that wants to pull back and think this isn't happening. Does that make any sense?
I've had so many challenges, and not just with disability, but with college too, and it's almost like I've gotten used to just getting past one crisis or hurdle, and I hit another one.
Part of me wants to get on my knees and weep.
A huge part of me is numb right now.
I haven't been able to afford to see my pain management specialist for spinal injections, so I've been dealing with a fair amount of pain more than normal.
My Neurontin was increased to help, but it made me so stupid-feeling that I couldn't do school work so I had to decrease the dose.
I haven't been able to afford physical therapy either, which really helps with deep tissue massage.
I guess this is another way to prove the saying, "Don't give up before the miracle happens."
