Thank you!
to everyone for posting. I can relate to so much of what has been written here. I also recently came out of denial that things would change and am very new to looking at things from my own perspective - learning to own my feelings about what is okay/not okay, etc. still feels strange. It is tempting to push them down and convince myself that everything is fine, despite the churning stomach and the fear.
This board and my alanon meetings are helping so much -