You know..I use really bad experiences to keep me on track. Now yours..that is a REALLY GOOD one to use. You are really fortunate that you pulled out of passing out and woke up enough to save yourself. I have a dear friend ..he really struggled with drinking. Went to rehab twice. They found him dead last year. Alone..he didn't wake up like you did and choked to death. It just crushed me. Helluva way to die..I was back and forth between being sad..and really angry. He had been thru a divorce but left behind a son and a daughter. They were angry and frustrated that he drank all the time anyway..this is something they will live with forever. Glad you are here. His death is one of many reasons I quit drinking. It holds absolutely no appeal for me now. I wish you well..Welcome!