The affects on my job were what drove me to leave. My life was truly becoming unmanageable. And the place I could see it most was at work and with my kids. I can't afford to lose my job, plus I have worked so hard to get to where I am that I decided it was worth fighting for. It was a driving factor in my decision to separate.
I wish I'd figured this out sooner for my sake... I can't control the economy but I could have controlled leaving my AH long ago and the days I've missed and the impact that had on whether my boss fought for me for another position in the district is something I can pretend not to know the answer to but deep down I KNOW it impacted my job.
I hate myself for losing my job bc of what it means for my kids lives and the fact that I did have a hand in it (at least I feel I did) and might have been able to save it if I'd done things differently attendance wise makes me hate myself and see how selfish I was to stay with AH when all it did was cause disaster.