Originally Posted by
jamaicamecrazy 
It must be the full moon or an unusually cold spring but I have been in the same funk for a few days. I often say the exact same thing. How did I get to this point" "Why did I not see this coming?" "Could I have done anything about it?"
I think we all go through this many times over - its similar to SailorJohn's "erasing old tapes" thread.
Today - I am at the place of "Damn I knew that was coming so why am I so upset about it" stage?
Because reality is hard to accept. That's all. It sucks.
But you know what? I have learned a lot throughout this process. I've learned to pay attention to life every day. I've learned to be grateful for the little things. I've learned to believe in a Higher Power, and become open-minded enough to allow myself to accept his guidance. I've met a lot of really neat people who otherwise I would have never spoken with. I've learned there is strength in numbers, and I do not have to suffer alone anymore. I've learned what love DOESN'T look like to me. I've learned to take care of myself.
Stay strong - it will get better.
~T