It must be the full moon or an unusually cold spring but I have been in the same funk for a few days. I often say the exact same thing.
How did I get to this point" "Why did I not see this coming?" "Could I have done anything about it?"
I am trying to focus on the blessings and the lessons I have learned so far. There are many. I keep thinking I just need to make up my mind to be happy.
Today I think I have said every slogan I can think of and prayed several times. I know this feeling wont last but for today it definitely feels like "What is the point?"
My kids are grown so the responsibility of caring for them is not there.
I have never left a bad movie in the middle. Too curious to see how it ends. But for today I don't like this movie one bit and I can't imagine a happy ending.
I am going to a meeting tonight and have spent most of the day on the board.
Please remember-We are not alone.
Hugs from me to you.