Thanks for all of the support last night.
It was an emotional ride from hell.
There are parts of detaching, that is not so easy.
Wheter I live with him or not.
I really believe my AH has a serious complusive /obession disorder
topped off with alcohol. I think that disorder scares me the most
sometimes, he totally loses control and doesnt even know what he
is doing at the time. He doesnt even have to be drinking to lose it.
I havent done alot of research on anger issues, maybe that is some
of it too. I dont know. All I know is Im very tired today...
Im damned if I do take his calls and Im damned if I dont.
If I dont take his calls, this is what happens, I get his threat of coming
back home. And Im not ready for that....
Damn, what am I ready for...Wish I had all of the answers. Like NOW! lol
I did call him this morning and asked him what was his plans?
I told him:
"You have no job here"
"I need a 60 day notice, so I can have time to find my own place"
"Where do you keep on getting all of this money"
"I need time and I dont need you to keep putting pressures on me"
"You have asked me 5 times in one week about my alanon class
and that is my business, not yours, and I am not comfortable sharing
that with you"
"You have Fridays off and your phone calls are non-stop, you upset me
all weekend, then you call me at work thru the week and upset me, when Im
the one who has to face the public after your phone calls"
"Your irrational behavior is driving me nuts and it needs to stop!!!"
He said:
"Well I just dont understand why my wife wont even talk to me"
"You wont even return my calls or texts"
"Oh I got your envelope of bills in the mail yesterday, Thank You for sending them"
"Okay, well I gotta get back to work"
No, he is not in any type of recovery program. He has only went to (ONE) AA class
in a couple of months. He did rehab for 28 days in January. Relapsed after 3 weeks.
Packed up and moved away. And still wants to call me "Wife".......Hmmmmm????
Thanks again to all, for your loving support!