Originally Posted by
goldengirl3 
It's really hard HAVING NO ONE.
Well here's the deal with that... you don't have NO ONE... you have YOURSELF!! So fall in love with yourself, and spend time treating yourself and you will soon realize that being alone does NOT have to mean being LONELY. (and by the way... you ALWAYS have your HP too!!!)
I wanted companionship soooo badly... and because of that, I was willing to accept some really unacceptable behavior. I settled on the morsels and crumbs that AH threw my way.
What I know now after working my Al-anon program... is that I am worth soooo much more. And if I want it, it's up to me to get it. I know that as I have gotten healthier, I have attracted healthier people to me (funny how that works). When we accept the unacceptable, we find ourselves surrounded by unacceptable (doesn't happen by accident folks!!!).
So the question Goldengirl is - what kind of life do you want? What kind of relationships do you want? What is/isn't acceptable? And then go get it.
You may find yourself alone and lonely for a bit... but as you get more comfortable in your new "coat"... you'll start reaching out and meeting new and healthy people.
I don't know if you go to Al-anon... but if not, you should consider. It really does work, if you work it.