I shared my thoughts with my mom last night.
She pointed out a few things to me.
"Its not that bad"....
Because you feel lonely
Because you didnt keep a journal that you could go back & read
Because he's not there with you, face to face.
Because you want your dream of a happy family & marriage
Because you have fear of change
Because he didnt beat you
Because your story doesnt seem as bad as your alanon friends
Oh...And did you forget, how you left him on the floor with his head bleeding for 3 hours, before you called 911, due to him being so drunk and passing out and hitting his head on the hutch.
And you wishing he would die before 911 arrived??
Quess my mother has a better memory than I do.....