YEs, I have this.
He is sober, working a weak program, changing some...
But, If I engage him, and it never fails...
He does some crazy thing with the positive energy I give to him.
If I am supportive, it always bites me in the a**
If I am tough love, I am a b*tch.
Just when I start thinking about, "Oh, it wasnt that bad..."
i have been going back and reading some of my old posts and journals.
Times when I had thought he really "got" something, I thought real change had occurred...I was always left feeling foolish for thinking that.
I hate that feeling of getting restrung up in his web of delusion and fantasy, and I can get there, because part of me WANTS to, but, that part is diminishing.
I hear ya.