thank you all.
After my morning rant, I checked the weather (beautiful)
So I got showered, dressed and around 11:00 am I went out/to a friend's house, and did not get back till dinner.
It was so amazing!
Then I come home and I see just how miserable my AH is just sitting in his s..t!
He goes nowhere even though he has a car ( I have to walk everywhere)
He does nothing. And my essence has not been here for a while for him to feed off of, He just looks down right pathetic! he doesn't say anything ...
But the look on his face says it all.
I guess it must be pretty hard to know that the only time I have a smile on my face anymore is when I'm coming in the door. That yes infact I have to find my happiness outside of these four walls. He's not a stupid man by any means.
I'm sure he gets it. I'm the stupid one. It took me almost 11 years to understand this!
Thank you again for the ongoing support and suggestions. I can't wait until the day that I feel qualified to give advice to a newbie.
Oh yeah, you guys who have read all my posts will appreciate this.
You know how isolated I've been. How he doesn't want me talking to anyone.
WEll everyone on the reserve was out today. I not only talked to a whole lot of people, I hung out with them!
And ya know what I found out. I'm still as likeable as I always used to be.
My self confidence took a major boost today.
Well, I'm going to top off my day by dying my hair (covering those greys)
I've only been here 2 years, but to look at me you'd think it was 10!