GUILT- that's all I can think of. My AH used to line all the cans up . I would wake up and find cans lined up in the family room, the bathroom, the kitchen, the porch. He did not feel the need to hide. I thought that was strange. Like he needed to see them the next morning-or maybe it was a passive aggressive thing towards me. But when he moved out I found many vodka bottles hidden around the house. It was like he was okay with me knowing he drank beer but when he got into the vodka, he knew he had crossed a line and was not ready to have us see his weakness.
I had mixed feelings when I found them. Both sad and angry that he had progressed in his drinking and behavior. Thankful that I did not know and that it did not add to my anxiety.