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Old 04-09-2011, 08:02 AM
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Ananda, I hope your math test went well.

I am with you on the idea that change needs to be on going. I am trying to be a little smarter about it than I usually am. My typical pattern is to be paralyzed by fear until something snaps, and then go into crisis management mode. It is kind of like an earthquake, stress builds until something happens, then hold on to your butt.

Change happens regardless of what I do. (Isn't impermanence one of three characteristics according to Buddhism?). I'll never be smart enough to see all of the consequences of my actions before I take them, so I need to remember to have my head and heart in the right place when I make decisions. Perhaps that is why I tried to get out of making decisions my whole life, I some level I know, that love trumps intelligence. Love is something I hoard...

(Gosh that was awkward to right, I sound like a flower child. It is the sort of thought I have all the time, but I try to hide them.)
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