Originally Posted by
putmeontheair 
I wish I could talk to the counselor (also his individual counselor) and get her thoughts on stuff, but I'm not sure she'd be honest with me about everything either. She seems to play both sides a little bit which makes me uncomfortable.
I wanted that to. I wanted sooo badly to get into AH's head. I wanted to know, "What the HELL is he thinking?" I tried talking to his sister, his family, his friends... digging around trying to see what he was telling them.
Know what it did? Screw ME up. Next time I do that will somebody please...
Going to other people isn't going to give you the answers to your questions. The answers are within YOU. Focus on you, and your recovery... and more will be revealed.