It's a lot easier to focus on one specific thing, because focusing on the big picture would be to admit just how big the problem truly has become.
I frequently did forget to look at the big picture.
I still do, really. I get trapped in one aspect, running over and over in my mind.
Sometimes it's tough to even admit that one thing happened, so I have to temporarily block out the rest for my own sanity.
Sometimes it's just a distraction from the bigger picture, to try and convince myself it wasn't that bad, what was I so worried about?
So far I have managed to convince myself that I am not going back, and that it doesn't matter how much I revisit issues, it's out of my hands to fix.
It seems to be working for the moment.
The split-second of fear I feel whenever I see a car that looks like his, or start worrying about if he'll show up at my desk at work, is actually helping.
All his attempts to try and reel me back in, at this point, are having the opposite effect and pushing me away more, emotionally.
Even so, the big picture is still hard.