Sinewave,
I feel like I am acquainted with your style of "letting "relationship "happen" to you.
It is comfortable, but you feel like you are settling.
It is unfair and exploiting her love and good nature to go on if you do not have love in the same way.
I am sorry, I dont know you, and I dont know if this is a recovery issue, but it sounds to me, like you know how you feel, and you feel like she is a friend. '
The fact that you posted that you feel guilty is a major red flag.
Why are you guilty.
If you know you dont want this, then I would ask her to be your friend while you go through your early recovery.
I would get my own apartment/place, and I would get clearer.
being annoyed by people, that is early recovery,.
being unclear and confused, that is early recovery..
But you do not sound unclear. you sound comfortable.
Thanks for posting, keep coming back!