My dad was like your mom, a hot head. Not with us but with my mother. Still, it affected me so now I also have a hard time with anger.
If you don't have a role model on how to handle it in a healthy way, it is a frightening feeling for folks like us. My anger is actually a mixture of anger, confusion and it terrifies me.
I know anger is healthy but when I feel it, I just want to stuff it in. Not good!
I LOL'd when you said you apolgized because that is exactly what I do.
When you find out how to deal with it like regular folks... let me know because I have the exact some problem.
Kickboxing would be a great idea! I have been partial to ****** dolls myself