Originally Posted by
Tuffgirl 
I love my husband and miss him terribly - not the alcoholic blamer quacker but the sweet, generous, kind-hearted funny guy I fell in love with. I know that guy is in there somewhere, underneath all that anger. I miss that guy a lot!
But I missed me more. My sanity, my peace, my relationship with my children, having guests & friends over, my extended family, my dogs...none of these things worked while we lived together. They are working now. And that's how I know I am back on the right path for me.
But gosh, I love that guy, I pray for him a lot, that he finds his path to happiness and peace, knowing that may not necessarily be with me.
TuffGirl. Your posts are an inspiration to me as I am walking the same path and feeling the same feelings as you are.
Like you, I missed "me" more than my EX. It's taken a while to see that. I see bits of "me" returning slowly since I ended things. I feel at peace with myself...well, most days. Heck, even my dog is a lot more settled. In spite of that, it's still not easy, I so want to talk to him, to see him but I know now that it's not for my best interests, my sanity, my wellbeing.
Like your prayers for your EX, I have given mine over to his HP to follow whatever path in life he chooses.