Huge part of me just wants him to come out and say something, I want to talk about it. I understand I was not there for him as far as the oral sex, but he never asked for it, and I didn't realize it was something he was wanting. Did it mean anything or was it just a BJ? Why doesn't he tell me how he feels, the only time he would mention something was when he was in a drunken stupper, and as all of us know, when do we ever listen to them then. My husband has been alcohol free since 9/2010 and I feel he is working his program, except for the Mr Nice Guy he is occassionally smoking, which makes me very mad,I feel he is not doing the program honestly. So at the same time how can I expect him to be honest with me. DOES any of this make sense!!!!