Word vomit...LOL...I think we've all been guilty of that once in a while. It's how some people process best.
Alcoholism is baffling...and heart wrenching...and sobriety is a period of confusion as well. When I really start to get mad at RAH, I try to imagine what it is like for him and find some compassion. Not always easy.
Have you tried Al-Anon? It's best right now to focus on you; work on your own issues.