Welcome Chris. That was the stage I was at when I decided to quit. It was no longer fun or relaxing - just a living hell. A rollercoaster ride I couldn't get off, and had no idea where it would end.
I made it, though, and now have over 3 yrs. due in part to the people here who supported me and convinced me that I could do it. I was so scared when I started out, and my feelings were so raw - but when I realized I was no longer alone I began to feel the burden lifted from me. I finally had people who understood me, and weren't shocked at where I'd been.
Please stay and tell us more of your story - we are pulling for you chris!