I think there is some honesty to what people say when they are drunk. Thier own twisted thoughts, AH doesn't really think I am a *&%^$ but he throws that same name at me everytime he drinks.... I know he doesn't trust anyone (he has the tattoo on his leg to prove it DTA) and I am sure that that includes me to a degree. Although everytime I bring up his drunken rants, he never remembers any of it. Doesn't seem like much of a defense to me....He has expressed that he has had some triggers about my faithfulness to him even when he has been sober... that is his jealous/controlling abusive nature another side to the A the side that brings out the violent demon.