Thru working the steps and reading the ACOA section.
I have found alot of serenity with my daughter in my heart.
It doesnt take away the pain, but it does give me hope
and room to breath.
I have put her and the situation with her in Gods hands.
I pray & ask that: When I am ready and NOT until Im ready, may the door be opened...
I dont want to miss another chance at having her back in my life.
Today, I was thinking about forgiveness. Why am I not forgiving him for all his
bad horrible behaviors over the years? Im not a cold person, What is wrong with me?
Today the answer came to me:
I asked myself:
What would you like to hear from him?
COMPARED TO
What do I hear from him?
WHAT I WOULD LIKE TO HEAR:
It would be nice to hear, that he understands what he has done & the
pain that he has caused the entire family. He is getting help and he will never allow himself to be like that again. And that he understands I have the right to have these feelings with so much pain & resentments, but together with God, we will work thru it
WHAT I HEAR?
Your always going to hold it over my head. Your daughter made her own choices.
I will not take the blame for this forever. Your a un-happy person. You need to
pray for serenity. Its in the past and I cant change it, so get over it....
Guess, thats why I cant forgive...