I talked to my husband recently, too. He's still lying. He wanted to tell me that he would be leaving our apartment to go off to his graduate school fellowship and 'taking several plane trips', I guess trying to make me feel jealous. Then he told me that I would have to make up for back rent. I know I'm not supposed to look at his illusion of success, but I can just imagine never getting over this, feeling bitter and playing the victim and living a small life. I just don't feel like anyone believes in me right now, including myself.