Thanks you all for the support~ I didn't answer my phone last night when he called, he caught me this morning though calling me at my office, I told him that yes I would meet him for lunch to talk. (today is his birthday)
I plan on just plain out telling him I am not interested in being with anyone who uses, and that we need to cool it. I thought about this alot last night, I kept telling myself~ If I continue with him, I will wind up how I was back at the start of this year, and emotional mess, wanting to die, full of pain, not caring about **** and barely making it through the day. I NEVER want to feel like that again, I don't want to be back in that place ever in my life. That was a scary and dark time for me. Ogly used to tell me all the time hindsight is always 20/20. I am blessed with that now.
Truly, Truly, Blessed.
Love you all.