Let me give this a shot too.... May have to copy some of the other ones because they are exactly how I feel too.
Reasons for staying married:
* I love him
* Down under it all I do feel he really tries but his illness it just getting the best of him
* Being single and ripping apart the family just seems too scary, too overwhelming
* Maybe once I am healed via Alanon, reading and counseling I'll be able to handle the situation better.
* He is a good dad... some of the time.
* Financial security
*Don’t want to give up on the dream of what I thought we’d have
* our history together: there’s a lot of it and it seems like a waste or a shame to throw it all out and have to start over making new memories with someone else
* he cares about me, even with his wacked out way of showing it
Reasons it is not healthy to stay in this marriage:
* I feel emotionally ALONE
* I fear what the future holds. Alcoholism is progressive and most likely the problems we have are only going to get worse
* I worry about how the all of this will affect our kids
* tired of being a married single parent
* I am tired of the lies, walking on egg shells, bickering, arguments, etc
* Don't trust him, even when he is nice I don't believe it is genuine, it is only part of the dance/ the game.
* I don’t feel he likes me, let alone loves me
* I deserve better! I want better!