My list, to be clear, shows me above all else that MY thinking is just as messed up as my AH's... I am trying to take stock of my stuff and putting these lists on paper is helping me do that... I was kind of trying to stick with the things that are keeping me stuck, my feelings, my wishes, my irrational hopes, my fears and not so much on the specifics of his actions... Maybe that's why I left the assault off? Who knows?