Oh god this sounds trully awfull,and i know exactly how this abusive behavior feels and also dropping restraining orders and injunctions and then feeling even worse because you might have to go back and ask for another one,because you never trusted your instincts the first time. I really feel for you,and i dont know how to give you advice,im sure you already know what you need to do,but im just saying you are not alone,i have been there like many others.
XX GHIRLXX