What a great post and all the insights are a blessing to me.
I married knowing what I was marrying into, despite the warnings from my AH own mother, I married. I questioned my decision and still got married... I have been in this relationship for 15 years, married almost 12, we have 4 children together and I am still trying to hold on.
Still hoping that we can make this work, somehow despite his desease and my own issues. I try to hold on now for the kids.
So many times I have said "this is the LAST time" so many times I have said "get out!" So many times we go back to sobriety and laughter, fun and happiness! And so many times we go back to "this is the LAST time" "get out". I am estimating this cycle happening a good 4-5 times a year.
:/ And still I am holding on ? To what ? For What ?