Thanks for the great feedback. It helps. Every little bit of it. It's especially nice to know I have a place to vent. I have never had that before. I'd gripe to my 'friends' about how big a pita my dh is, but never putting out that he is an A. It got to the point that they grew tired of me being a downer or never being able to go anywhere social with them. Little did they know that I couldn't leave my kids alone with my drunk/drugged up husband. It's at the point I am very alone & isolated. Part of me wants to 'come out' and maybe give a few relationships one last chance, but I am embarrassed about being a Debbie Downer all the time and burdening people with my issues.