Hon, a hundred different people here have said those exact words. You can read the stories of women like you right here on this forum. They all thought, hoped, prayed, that something, anything they might say would cause a light bulb to go off over their alcoholic's head and they'd suddenly realize what they have been doing. It just doesn't happen that way. I'm sorry.
I can guarantee you that almost every single one of them would strongly suggest that you get out while you can. You are already in a worse position than you were the first time you posted a few months ago. If you continue on in a relationship with an alcoholic, I can promise you that the next time you post, your situation will be even worse. Please take the advice and heed the experience of those of us who came before you.