I've back tracked on my decisions many times, always thinking with my heart. I never really wanted a divorce, I never wanted to live alone or truly be a single mom, but the truth of the matter is I've lived alone for most of our married life, raised the kids alone most of our married life and in a few months I'll be the primary bread winner as well.
So in a way it's changing and in another not so much. I think it's more a realization for me that he's not fulfilled the role of a husband and I quit trying to fill the role of a wife some time ago.